perhaps, because i miss him, i read his blog all over again. then i found that story, which suddenly brought me back to some months ago, when i was so damn angry to that woman, that bitchy thing (oh, how i love swearing at her!!!).
no matter what, the stories in his blog still couldn't make me forgive her (and it took me months to forgive him!). i still remember the hurt i felt, when he left soon after i entered the room. for god sake, i stayed up that late because i thought it would be the best time to spend with him before i left the following day. but then he left me to join that woman, it was more than just hurting... he tore up my heart, into very small pieces that i'm still mending till now. how could he do that, after all the sacrifice i made, right when i was down to the most hurting pain? i know he cared about her, and he can't deny that he still does. perhaps she deserved his attention, noting how close they had been all those years. i never meant to break their friendship anyway. but if he thinks that justifies his deed, well... he knows i'm too selfish to share.